No one is here at work today. So back to Lauren. Now this was the best pussy I’ve ever had in my life till this day. Like I said before, I could come in the pussy and no worry about babies. I was in heaven. It wasn’t the best pussy because I come in it, but for many other reasons.
Now after we had our first night of sex over her cousin’s house, I would go up to Youngstown to spend the night with her about two times a week during the week. I don’t know what I was doing on the weekends at the time, but I wasn’t spending them with her.
After about five nights of staying over her cousin’s house, I started to wonder why she never invited me to her house. What I conjured up in my head was that she had a boyfriend living there, so I asked her about that. I forget what answer she gave, but it was something bogus. I started telling her that I didn’t like being at her cousin’s house anymore, and I think I stopped seeing her for about a week. My friend Burton knew of her. I would always tell Burton my business back then.
Well, after being away for a bout a week, I started going through withdrawal and I talked to Burton about it. I told him that I was leaving her alone, but the pussy was so good, I don’t know if that was what I really wanted to do. I told him that she could ride dick, which she could do very well. Any way, I didn’t leave her alone. Boy she was the first girl to ride my dick right since Sue Jackson back in ninth grade, and don’t forget about the doggy style.
So eventually Lauren did invite me to her apartment. I don’t know why she didn’t in the first place. Maybe because she didn’t want to upset her last child’s father, or maybe because it was roach infested, or maybe because she didn’t have a box spring for her bed. Lauren, who I had initially dissed because I thought she had no body, turned out to have the best body that I had seen in my lifetime; she had a wrinkled stomach from having three kidz, but her other features made up for that. Height, bout 5/4. She did have small tidies but what I liked about them most was that I could suck one into my mouth and she loved it when I did that. Her ass was nice and round, and it jiggled when I fucked her from the back. When she rode my dick sometimes she would put her chest down on mine and just have her ass working; the ass would be just be jiggling and jumping up and down in the air. What I liked to do most was put my hands around her waist and just feel the wave from the ass moving up and down. It was so lovely. And I also like coming in the ass while she was riding me and I would be holding the ass tight as I shot every drip drop into her while she was jumping up and down on my dick.
So here I was getting into a relationship with Lauren. I practically moved in with her. I would bring a suit case with a weeks worth of clothes. I would stay at her house one week and go home the next week. We had much fun with our sex. She wanted to be a little wild I guess. She would let me fuck her in this closet doggie style. See she could get on her knees and put her head down on some clothes in the corner, and only her ass would be up in the air. I would just fuck her, spank the ass, and just bust a nut all in it. She also liked to hang from this bar in that closet, and I would stand on that little ledge. My dick and her pussy would just line up, and we would go to town. We also did this position from the shower. Lauren had these one pair of black panties that I loved. They tied on the sides, and when you untied them, they would just fall off. I used to love untying those panties. Lauren and I had many little fights where I would walk away and leave and wouldn’t call her. She would call me and I would go back to that pussy. She said that was the way we made up by having sex.
Now I know I sound like Lauren and I were just fucking, but it developed into more than that. I had to fix her up though, one thing I will never do to another female again. Just like I thought, she was wack: curl, corny gear, shoes; everything was not right, just the sex. Once we changed all that, I started liking her more. We would do the usual Warren and Youngstown thing; the only thing there was to do, go to the movies. I took her on a trip to NY with me. At that time, I would, or my friends and I would take a trip up to NY once a year; winter, spring, summer, fall. It didn’t matter the season or weather, we went. Lauren and I had fun going out and with sex. It was no doubt the greatest sexual relationship I ever had with a black woman. And get this, she never sucked my dick. Well, maybe once or twice, but noting major. I would sometimes pick Lauren up off the bed with her legs on my shoulders and she would hug me around my neck to hold on, and I would just move her up and down on my dick.
I even took Lauren to Atlanta Freak Nic with me. The first night there we had an argument because I felt she was paying a little too much attention to my friend. We made up the next morning though. She was wearing her cat suit that day. We went over to my cousin’s house that morning. We left my two friends at the place where we were staying. We returned to go and get them at about one or two and they were gone. Some how we got to Lennox Square Mall. We saw my friends there, and one of them, Leon, was upset that we had left them at the house for so long. Now, maybe I would have been upset also, at first. But he was in a mall full of sexy bitches, and was arguing with me, ready to fight. Yes, I left them, and maybe a little too long, but he was at the place where we were going to end up anyway, and the place was packed with beautiful women. Now if he had missed the whole event of the mall and everything because of me, I could have sympathized with him, but since he was there where all of the action was, I let him be mad. He said fuck me, I said fuck him, and Lauren and I went about our way. She was looking good to me in that cat suit that made me change my mind about talking to her in the beginning. Guys were hawking her and taking pictures and video taping the ass walking by. I loved it. I don’t get mad about shit like that, in fact, I like when everybody is letting me know that my girl is sexy, it only makes me want the ass more at the end of the night.
So we left the mall and went riding. At night time, we found a little club and went inside. It was packed and they were playing Luke Two Live Crew booty shake music all night long. I didn’t like booty music, but I was in Rome, and I started doing what the Romans do. So I started freaking Lauren on the dance floor. I took my shirt off. I had my hand inside the cat suit feeling her tidies. We knew no one so it didn’t matter what we did. She started getting nervous because some guys were looking at me with my hand in her shirt. They had a strip contest in the club where anyone could basically jump on stage and take their pants off or lift their dress up, and many of the girls were wearing thongs under their clothing. Lauren knew I liked shit like that because I would always pull her panties up into her ass during foreplay. After the strip contest, we went out to the car and fucked right there in the crowded parking lot, but I think we were away from the crowd. I kind of hoped that someone would discover us and look in the car window. I was out of town and didn’t care. That was some great sex that night in the car.
So Lauren and me had a little relationship filled with fun, sex and little arguments. I loved Lauren, and wanted to be with her. But Lauren had three kidz, and at the time, I didn’t see how we could make it together forever so I told her one night that she was the one for me, but we would probably not be together forever because of the responsibility of the kidz; those were my true feelings. I wanted to be truly honest with her. I don’t know what effect that had on the relationship, but we continued on after I said that to her. I think I said that before the NY trip and the Atlanta trip. It was Lauren and me together. It was great.
But somehow at the same time there was Rebecca and me. Now I met Rebecca in High school. I was told that she fucked niggaz. I thought that she was thick and I liked thick back in high school. And I liked Rebecca’s little switch to her walk. So one night at a basketball game that my girl friend, who I loved very much, didn’t attend, I asked Rebecca for her number and we started talking. The next weekend, she had to baby sit, and she invited me over. I went over there and fucked her. Nothing special, just fucked her until her pussy got dry, busted a nut on her stomach, and put on my clothes and called my boy Flynn to come and pick me up since my car was down at the time. While I was waiting on Flynn, her parents showed up. We were both dressed, so they didn’t catch us or anything. They did a little investigating; asked why the bed was messed up and asked me how old I was. I left and that was that. After that night Rebecca and I would hook up on days she told her parents that she had to candy stripe at the hospital, fuck her twice and take her back to the hospital. We did this for about two months.
Somehow, the rumor had gotten back to my girl friend Samantha Conrad whom I loved very much during my senior year in high school. The boy that Rebecca was baby sitting told someone that I was there and he described a negro with a green Celtics Starter jacket. I told Samantha it wasn’t me. But it had to be me because I was the only one at the school with a green Celtics Starter jacket. I had heard that one of my friends whom everybody said looks just like me, Grigg Bathegate, had the same jacket so I told her it could have been him. I guess she believed me because we stayed together.
Now I loved Samantha to death. Every since eighth grade, I had this burning desire to be in a relationship with a nice cute little white girl. One of the so called classy ones who wasn’t fucking all the black boys in the school. I discovered Samantha Conrad. I met her on a bus trip to Virginia with the band. She played the clarinet. We were sitting across from each other on the bus. Being a high school kid, I made fun out of the ride. I started talking with her and her best friend. The one line I’ll never forget and Samantha won’t neither, though we will probably never speak again in life, “you have very kissable lips.” Where did I come up with that shit at? I think I heard it in a movie or something or on a comic special. But anyway, the trip went well and I had fun. After we got to Virginia, I don’t think I talked to Samantha during our stay there. I don’t think I sat across from her on the way home because me and some friends of mine got into trouble for sneaking out of the room at night. They had us locked up in our rooms at 9 P.M. while other schools were out on the beach playing all night.
We snuck out and got busted. We never would have gotten caught, but check this. We snuck out and were walking scared, but brave. While on the stair case, we thought we heard somebody coming so we ran down the steps and out of a door which landed us outside where we wanted to be, but we were at the back of the hotel and didn’t know how we were going to get back in. We found our way to the front and were heading back upstairs to go to our rooms. We decided to take the elevator, why, who knows. You do some of the stupidest shit when you are a teenager thinking you are clever. So when the elevator reaches the bottom floor, the door opens, and none other than the band director and the chaperones are staring us in the face shocked. They had us with them all the next day. I was pissed saying that we shouldn’t have been locked up in the rooms anyway while other bands were on the beach. I just finished reading or was in the middle of reading Malcolm X. I was calling them prejudice, saying that they wouldn’t let us out at night to play because there were too many blacks in the band. We had to report to them every hour at the amusement park, and we had to ride their bus home. Samantha had taken some pictures of me on the bus trip there. She showed them to me at school. And that was pretty much the end of our little whatever you want to call it. I’ll get to Samantha later.
Rebecca and I had been fooling around off and on since my senior year in high school. Rebecca was a thick little white whore. She tried to fuck every black boy in the school and I think she did. She would call me every so often and we would fuck a few times and then she would stop calling; on to the next black dick I guess. But my second year in college, I ran into her at YSU picking her sister up from school. We started talking again, and this was before I met Lauren. This time Rebecca kept fucking me and she never stopped calling. I would sneak over to her moms house when everybody was sleep and spend half the night with her; get up very early and leave. At first we started down stairs in the basement, and I would hide every time I heard the floor squeak.
Now Rebecca turned out to be the best sex I ever had. At first we started out, her sucking my dick, missionary and doggie style because we couldn’t make too much noise in her parents home. I would go there and she would have “T-shirt and my panties on” (as a reference to the song from 1998). She would have on these panties that covered only a little of her wide ass, and a T-shirt. My dick would be rock hard as soon as she answered the door. After a while of going into the basement, we moved it to the bedroom. It was there that she sucked my dick one night, and she did for so long and it felt so good, I came in her mouth. I had never done that with anyone else.
We eventually got caught in her parents house so we chilled with that a little while. We started doing it in the car at the cemetary, and where ever we could find a spot. We’d go with her sister to her boyfriends’ house and spend the night there. And we would go to hotels. We did this for a year. My dick would be so hard for Rebecca. She would always go into my pants and grab my dick while we were kissing, and then she would suck it so nice and sweet, and her pussy would always be wet. I loved grabbing that ass. We would try to fuck as long as possible without me coming, now that was fun. She eventually got on the pill and I could bust nuts all in her pussy too. I was in pussy heaven. A white girl sucking my dick who I could fuck whenever, where ever and however, and a black girl with a nice round ass that she knew how to work who I could fuck whenever, where ever and however, and I could bust nuts in both their asses and no one got pregnant. Rebecca would meet me after work in the summer and during lunch time. We would go to the park and fuck in the car, and when she was on her period, she would suck my dick and I would come in her mouth. I would fuck Rebecca during the day, and go stay with Lauren during the night.
The summer after my third year in college Rebecca got her own apartment in Youngstown down the street from the school. That is when she started buying a bunch of thongs and wearing them all the time around the house and under ever outfit. When she got that apartment, by that time, we had our sexual routine. But in that apartment we did many things like fucking in front of the window hoping someone on the street would see us. We fucked all the time. Any time my dick was hard, I would just put it in her mouth and fuck her on the bed, on the floor, on the couch. My favorite was her bending over the couch looking out the window, and fucking her doggie style. She would reach back at a certain point and play with my balls and I would just bust a nice warm nut all in her ass. It was in that apartment that she let me try to fuck her in the ass. She never really got into it because it hurt. We had tried it once before at her moms house. We did it off and on to spice things up.
We would always watch porno movies, mostly ones with two men and one girl involved. You know, one man fucking in the ass and another in the pussy. Or one man fucking doggie style while the other man stands in front of her and she sucks his dick or jacks it off. We bought about three of those and would watch them from time to time. She said she wanted to see what it felt like to be fucked in the ass the same time as in her pussy. We went out and bought a dill doe and experimented with it, putting in into her ass while I was fucking her.
After watching those movies so many times we decided to try the two man thing. We started to do it once while my cousin Jonah was over, but decided not to. One night my frat brother Mitchell was over for some reason. I think we were having a meeting and Rebecca was in the shower. When she came out, I went into the room and started playing with her ass and we talked about inviting Mitchell in to have sex with us. We decided to call him in the room. He came in and I was playing with her ass, which was busting out of a pair of colorful cotton thongs. He stood on the wall next to the bed and watched me. She went over and started sucking his dick. I followed her and started playing with her tidies. She told him to lie down on the bed. He pulled his pants down and did as he was told. So as she was on the bed sucking his dick on her knees, I pulled her panties to the side and started fucking her doggie style. Mitchell came in her mouth very quickly. He always told me he couldn’t last when a bitch was sucking his dick. His dick was still hard and she kept on sucking it. I came rather quickly also because I was so excited, I couldn’t believe I was doing what they do in the movies. So we stopped after that. We dropped Mitchell off at home and we came back and fucked some more. We talked about how it felt funny, but we enjoyed it. We still didn’t reach our goal or getting a dick in both her ass and pussy. We tried it again about a week later. Mitchell couldn’t get his dick hard enough to fuck her in her ass with a rubber on. So he laid down and she got on top of him, and I got on top of her and put my dick in her ass. She started wiggling around, moaning, and she came. Mitchell got up. I kept my dick in her ass and fucked her until I came.
After that night she said that she enjoyed it but she didn’t like the fact of coming with his dick in her pussy. We also discussed the fact of Mitchell’s dick being too small and that she wanted a bigger one. I thought of my friend Tracey. He had a long dick like mine and she liked it. She would suck his dick and I would fuck her doggie style and then we would switch. He didn’t want to fuck her in the ass though. So she got on top of his dick, and I tried to fuck her in the ass, but I had already came in her mouth and my dick was soft. So she kept on riding his dick. I went into the room and got the dill doe and started sticking it in her ass. She told me to stop, so I started fingering her ass hole. Tracey stopped. We both had come and were dead. She was still ready to go. We all just sat on the couch. They lit up some weed and I had me a 40 oz of beer. I liked doing that freaky shit. Rebecca and I did it all. She never invited her ugly friend over for me to fuck two women though. We fucked Mitchell and Tracey twice, and then we stopped that. Well, she fucked them. I was just there fucking her too.
Yeah Rebecca was the greatest sexual experience. It was because of her that I like to eat pussy and make it come. I can’t get enough of eating Sausha’s pussy. I love eating pussy now. Rebecca was the first girl whose pussy I really ate. I tried giving that pleasure to Lauren but she said that she didn’t like it. I used to love to make Rebecca come by playing with her clit while on top of her fucking. I would stick my finger in her ass, which she loved. I would be fucking, playing with the clit with one hand , and playing with the ass hole with the other hand. When she would come, her ass would pulsate like a heart beat. I thought all pussies were supposed to pulsate like that when they came. This led me to believe that Lauren was faking when she claimed she was coming. All she would do was starting screaming “oooh Jesus, OOOH!” I put my finger in her ass and no pulsation. Sausha doesn’t pulsate neither. Now I know that all women come differently, but they do come; or at least I think they do. For all I know, they could be faking.
WHAT WAS THE FREAKIEST PORN MOVIE SEX YOU’VE EVER HAD?
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Caveat: I notice I use the word “Bitch” a lot. I liken it to a song by “The Geto Boys” called “Gansta of Love” (so misogynistic that it’s caricaturally funny.)
Disclaimer: I do not call women bitches in life or treat them inferior in alpha male dominant low-self-esteem fashion.
As these journals were personal (never to be read until my death or by close family only), I’d read them kin to Holden Caufield, past tense (20 years past) first person singular.