I’ve incorporate my production
company named for my mother, grandfather and grandmother, Leanne, Michael
& Ella Productions Inc.” I received the incorporation papers in the mail; I
filed for federal and state S Corporation status; I’ve read into what state
taxes have to be paid, as well as taxes to be paid once I hire employees
and my payroll reaches more than $300 per quarter. I’ve started working on
my business plan, which I’m stopped dead in my tracks because I need
market research and facts as to the
buying habits of the Hip Hop community. Official
market research studies, which can be purchased from Market Research.Com
for $200.00 to $5000.00, money which I don’t have. I figure I’ll go the library
and look up some in Billboard magazine and they should give me some sales
information and future predictions concerning Hip Hop music, which I need
for my business plan.
So the main project that will be sphere headed by my company are a Documentary which I have completely written, and need to get a director to film and edit and help me get financing based upon realistic cost projections. I have also planned my album, which it looks like I am going to have to write myself. I have ten good songs that I would like to record, and I’m going to include five instrumentals. Once I get it recorded, which shouldn’t be a problem, I need financing to market and promote the album.
It is becoming quite clear to me
that an accounting job is nowhere in my immediate future. I’m living
off of table scraps right now as far as money
goes. I’m constantly thinking about this company that I want to start and be
successful. I read Donald Trump’s
new book “How to Get Rich,” which
really had nothing to do with telling you anything about getting rich. I’m
glad I didn’t purchase it. I read it in two days at the Barnes and Nobles
book store on Broadway. The book did kind of tell you to have passion
about any business that you are running especially if it’s your own. Along
with that passion, know every
little detail possible about that business. You
have to work hard because no one is going to work harder than you to make you
rich. The book was sort of inspiring but really had no good details concerning
gaining and keeping wealth.
So as it is now, I spend approximately 3 to 4 hours a day reading something to broaden my business knowledge or writing my business plan. That time to me is really not enough, but I’m stagnated because I don’t have any real money to really start doing anything as far as business goes. I mean without money, what can I really do beside plan and write down ideas. I need money to make them tangible, but all in all, I’m excited about Leanne, Michael & Ella Productions Inc. and working to make it into a major label, or at least getting it to be a major force in the music industry to be recognized.
I’ve thought about acting and
modeling but getting into those professions will probably be as hard as
getting into Hip Hop, which I haven’t been able to get into Hip Hop, which
is why I’m seriously starting
my own company. Here I am –, I have nothing but
dreams. I need to get more serious about taking the GMAT test starting MBA
courses in the fall. As far as I see, that is the only real step that I
can take to secure me an aiiight future. Yeah, I know they say work hard
at your passion and it will come to pass. While I have faith in my passion, my
dream will slowly materialize, and too slow for my life. If I was — or
younger and in my current situation, I’d be fine, probably run with it.
But I’m — living with and off of my girlfriend and that is not cool.
I saw Denzel
Washington yesterday in the Village on Broadway and Prince. I recognized
him trying to be very incognito. I just calmly walked in front of him and
the two men who were lazily body guarding him in an effort to keep his
presence incognito; I extended my hand out to him, he looked at me and he
extended his hand back and we shook. I’m not a star struck individual.
At age –, I know that celebrities are real people just like I am who
happen to be a bit more fortunate than myself, to be living there dreams.
I only make it a point to speak to those celebrities that I admire their work
and their career. Like I seen Eric
Sermon of EPMD walking past me
in Joe’s Pub night club and I
shook his hand. I’ve seen Dana Dane
twice on different occasions, and because of his legendary status (one of
the, probably the 1st solo MC to have gold album sales), I have to extend
my hand out to him every time I see him.
I don’t know if I’m cut out for
this relationship that I am involved in. It’s a cute little arrangement I have
here. The perfect little light skinned attractive woman whom everybody
likes. She has the perfect little
light skinned daughter that everybody like. Her daughter
and my daughter get along really well. I’ve even known her daughter since she
was like 2 and a half, the only other man in her mother’s life besides her
father. I feel an obligation to be in this for the long run. I used to
feel love about the situation, but that love was damaged by a too close for
comfort friendship she had or has with another man. In addition to that,
she does not trust me. I feel like every time I tell her something as far as me
going somewhere without her that she feels I am lying and going somewhere
else. I don’t like the feeling of not being trusted. She also tries to do
things that I do like if I stay out all day and all night without calling,
she’ll do the same thing the next day or in the near future. I don’t call
her because it seems
like she private investigates what I tell her.
If I don’t tell her anything, there is nothing to investigate. Denzel said on
The View this morning that his marriage works and has worked for 20 years due
to trust and patience. I do not think neither of us has trust nor
patience. I know I don’t have patience for anything that is making me unhappy,
and as I’ve done before, I’ll leave it alone quickly and start something else.
So I’m — and having this
conversation with myself. I thought I was a gentle man, and that I would be in
a successful loving relationship and happy. But it is not that way for me.
But compared to most people, I think my relationship woes are light. I
guess I’m looking for perfection and that is not possible. I kind
of think I might end up alone, well not alone no
time soon, but just in old age alone, not married for 20, 30 years and dying
with someone as my long loved wife.
My future is not bright right now. I have high hopes though. I did have
a job interview last Friday with a British company called Financial Times. It seems like a cool company that I could grow
with; I want to work for them. It was a British woman who got me hired at
the Advertising agency two years ago. Maybe Brits are the only people who are
not subjecting me to discrimination that I believe other companies and
employment agencies are subjecting me to. I’ve been jobless for a year
now. Many agencies have called me but no job has resulted. I thought I’d
never feel the effects of being a black man, but now, sad to say, I believe I
am right now in New York City.
The Only Child 1988 