Tag: Road Trip

Jrnl Entry No. 5.31.2002

It is after the fact of the trip to Florida and like I said, Joanie, while cute, was looking corny. Eunice was only dressed a little to go to the beach, and looked alright in her linen mini skirt.

When we got to the beach a little shit hit the fan. Joanie and Eunice, and Watrina all had on two piece bathing suits. Eunice had a wrap around her stomach to cover her little pouch and stretched marks. Joanie had on a high rise bottom that covered half her stomach. Watrina had on a low rise bottom with the strings tying on the sides.

Everything was going smooth on the beach. It was a little cloudy out there and it started raining for a little bit. But after a little while, the sun started shinning. Watrina had some sun tan lotion with her and she asked me to put some on her back and legs. I proceeded to put it on her back and she told me to undo her string and I did, no harm no foul, her breasts were on the ground. So while I’m undoing her string, Eunice looks at us and says in a funny manner, “what the hell is y’all doin?” We didn’t see that we were doing anything out of the ordinary because women undo the back of their bathing suits all the time to get a little sun on their backs at the beach. We even saw a few other women doing it.

So Eunice starts telling Romeo not to look at her and this and that, which I thought was also a joke. So Watrina is laying there and everything seems to be fine. I was sitting by Watrina at one point and I decided to move in the circle where everybody else was conversing. As I move over there by my cousin Romeo, Eunice tells Romeo to turn his chair around; she don’t want him giving Watrina any attention and she was serious because she told him twice and she said in the air, “I don’t’ know why she doin’ that shit.” And then she turns to me and says, “And …., I’m telling you that you are gonna respect me at my house and my family. No public displays of affection.” I hadn’t heard that since high school senior year. I figured that she was just jealous because let her tell it, Romeo never touches her. So I just says “alright” and turns my head and sing, “Lord help me forgive him I got some issues” (Jay Z). Eunice has issues I know, so I just left it alone and didn’t even say anything.

As we were leaving the beach, Eunice says to Watrina, “I have to talk to you young lady about woman issues” Obviously talking about the undoing of the bathing suit top strap. When she was saying it she said in a fun way as if it was really no big deal. Later on that night while everybody was home Watrina didn’t want to socialize with anyone and she didn’t tell me why and that made me upset. After me bitching at her about it, she tells me that she didn’t feel good; she felt that she didn’t have anything in common with the older married people, so we never made it outside to the pool with everyone else. She told me when we got back to New York that she wasn’t gonna socialize with someone (Eunice) who thought she was trying to seduce her husband.

So me taking my sexy younger girlfriend on the trip caused a little slight disaster, but nothing major. There weren’t any big heated arguments about it or nothing; it was just a little issue. When I got to work Wednesday, I emailed Eunice that I had a good time. She e-mailed me back saying that she thought I was gonna curse her out. I told her that she just over-reacted about the bathing strap on the beach. Why did I say that? It started a whole chain of e-mails between she and I defending our position on the issue. The chain of e-mails caused my cousin Romeo to get mad at me because Eunice was turning my standing up for Watrina into a personal issue with him and how he behaves toward her.

I think the relationship between me, Romeo and Eunice was damaged a little by this incident. But it doesn’t matter. I try not to depend on anyone and stand on my own two. They helped me out in a time of need when I got fired. Romeo was supposed to be send me $100 a month for like three to four months, but I actually only received one $100 check. They sent me $800 as a pay advance because I wasn’t getting paid for a month and I needed the money to tide me over. As soon as I got my check I mailed them the $800. So if the bridge was burned in that respect, to me there wasn’t really ever a bridge to start with.

EMAILS:

ME 5.31.2002 9:47 AM: You over reacted and are over reacting: “She’s disrespecting her own worth. She took her off top in FRONT OF Romeo while he was taking pictures. She had to go home with us. (I didn’t know trying to get sun on your back was such a slutty act). You don’t have to take off your top to get attention. Would you want your daughter to do that on the beach?” Are you hearing yourself?

As if you, Romeo, or me saw her bare tidies out on the beach. Did you, because I didn’t? I guess some time while I wasn’t looking, she turned around and smiled at the camera flashing her breasts at everyone. Women take the strap of their bathing suit loose all the time on the beach and lay face down, NOT EXPOSING THEIR BREASTS TO ANYONE! I don’t see a problem with it, so if my daughter did that, I wouldn’t mind and I’d still think she was beautiful and be happy to have her riding home with me.

The sun was shining at times but not a lot, so in your over reaction you can use the “no sun” excuse to hold up your insecurity about her being younger than you, having a better body than you, and being around your husband with her back out. If it makes you feel any better, I took a few glances at you in your bathing suit and you didn’t look bad.

And you answered the “does she do it often question yourself.” There aren’t good beaches around and in New York, people do other things and most of us don’t think about goin’ swimming on a beach or sun tanning. That’s like asking women in Cancun do they sun bath often, so why are they doing it there?

I never grabbed her bare breasts in front of no one, especially not on the beach, and especially not in front of Conotry.

Maybe we shouldn’t come back together, if we even stay together, until she has her second bady like you and Joanie, and has a little more fat hanging out of her bathing suit bottom.

And it is also an issue of different views on different things. I know and been knew that I and probably Romeo is a little bit more liberal than you. In my liberalness, people can do what they want when they want. It’s only disrespect if it is directed directly at ME. If she took her top off right in front of Romeo’s eyes and he saw her bare tidies, nipple and all, then that would have been disrespect to you, me and Romeo as a married man. But it is just my liberal view and opinion that her breasts were on the ground at all times when she took her top off. AND A BREAST IS NOT REALLY A BREAST UNTIL YOU SEE THE NIPPLE! DID YOU SEE HER NIPPLE?

We could go on and on. To end this, she probably won’t want to come back and if she does she and me will make sure that she doesn’t wear anything with her back out. I guess the shirt with the chains in the back with the tight jeans was a little much also huh? Too much skin showing? Like you said about money, she got it like that. And though Romeo is a handsome man, I think she respects the fact that he is married with children and is my cousin. Maybe you are telling off on yourself as a woman, like you said, about how scandalous you are, were, or could be.

EUNICE 5.31.2002 10:47 AM: See Romeo, how ….. is standing up for his GIRLFRIEND, even if it means insulting his favorite cousin’s wife-who allowed you to send him money at will, loan him money at will – see how he’s like “fuck everyone else when it comes down to her?!!!” I wish I had a prince charming like that.

ROMEO 5.31.2002 11:29 AM: ….., Stop writing emails about this subject or anything close to it to my wife. This is enough. This is affecting my personal life and I don’t like it. Stop it, stop it, stop it! If any more emails should come my way concerning this subject I will take it personal and will handle it in that manner. Now I said enough in the last message I sent out and I’m not going to send out anymore saying enough. Eunice, You stop also. The views you should be concerned with are those in our house. ….. is no longer here. Let him be. Leave it alone. Everyone’s thoughts have been aired. Enough!!!

Everyone who spends a little amount of time with Eunice can tell that she has major issues with life. Romeo said that she had a rough life coming up. He didn’t go into detail about what that meant but I can tell from how she acts. I think her life with Romeo, the two kids, the business, the success, the new houses, etc. is what holds her together and defines her. If she lost her status so to say, she’d break down I think.

The new house! Let’s talk about the new house! This house is what I was expecting last time. The new house is bangin! From the front door, you have a living room and an office and their master bedroom with a big master bath, with bath tub and a stand-alone double shower with double shower heads as to take showers together without actually having to share the water. Then, you enter the kitchen which is of good size; off from that is the entertainment room with the big screen T.V. on the wall. They have soft plush, butta leather furniture. Then off from that room is the kid’s game room. It had a mini pool table, a ping pong table and a mini air hockey game. That room also had a bathroom with a nice size shower, but no tub. Then, coming back through the entertainment room, you go into the back where the kids’ rooms are. And in the middle of their rooms is a shared bathroom with double vanity sink and mirror separated from the tub/shower and toilet. This bathroom also serves as the main bathroom I think for guest. Then you have the wash room and the three car garage. Then back to the entertainment room, on the other side is the patio outside with the in-ground swimming pool. The swimming pool is kind of small though, but it’s a refreshing pool none the less. And of course all of this is housed in a screen to keep the bugs out. Then outside of the patio house is the full tennis court which also serves as a basketball court as well, with break-away backboards. They probably should have housed it in a screen also and put a light out there, but they didn’t think of that or ran out of money.

It’s a beautiful home; one I wish I had. I don’t see how I’m gonna get one with my life. I have a smart girl in Watrina but she is young and spends money frivolously right now. Though I would like my Hip Hop music career to get me in a house like that or better, that is a dream and you never know when dreams are gonna come true. I’m a strong independent young man, taking care of myself pretty well. Who knows what the future holds. I hope something good for me…….

WHEN WAS TIME YOU WERE AROUND SOMEONE ACTING OUT OF INSECURITY CAUSING A GOOD TIME TO BECOME A BAD TIME?

Jrnl Entry No. 5.21.2002

Reflecting on this bullshit we call life this morning. I got a trip planned with my cousin Jeff and his wife Joanie to go to Florida to see my cousin Romeo and his wife Eunice. My girlfriend Watrina is coming along with me. I’ve been seeing her for a year now, and besides her having friends for all I know, that she could be fucking at any time, everything with us is kind of alright. If we can get passed the friend thing then we will be fine; I am more calm about her friend situation that I was six months ago.

Like this past Sunday her friend Thurston, some older man who is her nieces godfather, called her on her phone all night leaving messages about how he misses her and how he wish he could lay next to her and this other bullshit. She maintains that they are just friends; that he slept on the floor when she went to Vegas with him, and that he is just a lonely man. He called her five times during the night. Some other guy also called who she says is her friend and he works at a restaurant and she ate lunch there for free and he served her and her friends especially. He called asking her why doesn’t she respond to his calls, and said he wants to put a smile on her face like he did at lunch that day. She claims he is a married man.

She has an excuse for every nigga that call her talking some shit except for that maybe she fucked them or has plans for fucking them. She says if I think this about her that I shouldn’t be fuckin’ with her then. My take is that people do things and you can’t stop them. The real of life is that no nigga or no bitch is above giving their pussy or dick away to someone else while in a relationship; hell, even marriage. So if shit is constantly popping up, you might as well think the worse. That is just my way. Fuck being optimistic about the shit. Cheating, while bad, is really a small thing, once it’s done, it’s done and can’t be reversed, but it can be lived with for one or so incidences. But if the shit happens repeatedly, then fuck that bitch or that nigga because they are disrespecting you as a person, and as the person whom they say they want to be in a relationship with.

Watrina also tells me that she will fuck Colbert if we are not talking for a few months or so. She says they used to fuck and I guess she likes him; says he is a ladies man. I don’t know why they stopped fucking around in the first place. She also got her boyfriend Mique over my head who is prison serving 25 years to life. Who says if that nigga pop out of jail, she won’t fuck him. All this just increases the possibility that I will fuck around when the time comes. She also maintains that she will cheat in a relationship other than marriage. I can tell from being with her that she’s only part serious about this relationship. This Chinese horoscope thing says that I shouldn’t fuck with her because she is not gonna be nothing but trouble. I see that, but I also see happiness so I’ll chance it. I’m only getting married once like I’m only having one kid. So if my marriage fails, and my dream to become a Hip Hop producer fails, I told Watrina I’ll just live the life of a recluse, alone and stop all contact with my family except my mother and daughter.

I’m getting better at my job, but I still suck at it. I’ll see this month if I can work this cash reconciliation out without the help of my supervisor. I’m having trouble billing clients in the system, but I’ve semi-figured that out. I have to have my boss check it out and if it is a go, then I’m fine with that.

I’m kind of lost with this music shit also. I don’t know where to turn with this. I got tracks, but what to do with them I don’t know. No one seems to want to even lead me in any type of direction with this shit. All anyone can say is that your tracks ain’t hot enough, which I don’t believe that shit. I’ve been listening to and making this shit in my head for 15 years and I know how to make it. The mutha fuckas who tell me that my tracks ain’t up to par are just those trying to discourage me, to weed out the weak; the shit is light weight working, but I’m crawling slowly not at a complete stop.

I hate the future because the shit is so uncertain. I could get fired again or laid off and I am not prepared for that. I like this job and want to excel at it, but who says that this job is not gonna lose some of its clients down the road and not gain new ones? Everything is a toss-up and that is fucked up. From job security to love relationship; my bills are all fucked up. I had to sacrifice a few bills to pay for this trip to Florida. Watrina is probably gonna try and pay for the whole trip for me and her and her daughter, but I’m gonna take $300 with me and I’ll probably spend it all. I’m planning on getting drunk from the time I hit Florida to the day when it’s time to drive back. I’m gonna enjoy myself on this trip. Enjoy having Watrina there with me.

I know everybody there is gonna be dressed all corny. Watrina and I are gonna be like out of place looking like city slickers and shit. Jeff and Joanie will probably be wearing matching outfits and shit. Eunice is a toss-up; she may not be looking that corny especially since she saw how Watrina does it. I know Romeo and Eunice’s friends are gonna be super corny. Like the last time I was there, Eunice’s friend Leafette was on a casual day, had on some Polo jeans and that shit is so played out. I can’t even say that she was trying to be that fashionable, it was a baby birthday party. It is really ridiculous how New York style is so different from any other place in America. You have to be here for a year or two and then go to another city to really feel the effect of this. I used to visit here for a day or two and go back home and everything seemed cool, not country as everybody calls where I’m from. But after staying in New York for two and half years, I see what New Yorkers mean when they call our accent country and our style of dress outdated. See living in Ohio, we call Mississippi and Atlanta country by way of their accent. But since I’ve been staying in New York, I’ve noticed that in Ohio we do have an accent and it does sound a little country.