Jrnl Entry No.10.21.1999

I need some pussy. I wonder if women get horny like this and start telling themselves that they need some dick. Yeah, they do and probably just as frequently as we do even though studies or surveys show that men think about sex like 40 times an hour and women think about it like 4 times an hour or something like that; its some ole ridiculous ratio.

My dick has been hard all week. I’ve been thinking about eating Sausha’s cute little pussy. I love when I have her legs pinned up and knees damn near touching the bed and I just hold them there and fuck the pussy so nicely. I usually come that way. I pull my dick out and just nut all over her chest . The last two weeks, I had so much nut backed up that it almost squirted into her face. She said she saw it shoot like a waterfall. There was a line of sperm from her belly button to her neck.

Sausha’s skin is so soft. I love her soft little body, her tidies, the way she keeps her pussy shaved is just so attractive. When I make love to Sausha I try and lick every spot on her body: the crack of her ass, her toes, her elbows, her ears, just every little part I can think of. By time I get done with giving her foreplay and enjoying the site of her body, my dick is so hard and dripping with pre-cum. When I finally get into the pussy, it feels extraordinary. Her pussy is soft and wet and ready also and we just make love and gradually move into this fast motion until I just explode.

Sometimes I call for her to get on top or to flip over so I can get it from the back. I’m usually so worked up and just so happy to be in the pussy I don’t even want to take my dick out or stop the motions to change positions. We usually save the positions for the second or third round. I usually don’t give her a chance to give me any foreplay and she usually doesn’t take charge to do so. Every once in a while I turn over on my back and let her do a little work. She kisses my nipples and my neck. She works her way down to my dick and grabs it with her mouth. I love that, to have my dick sucked with no hands when she first puts it into her mouth. She not a pro at sucking dick, but just to have it in her mouth feels so good when she does do it. She kisses her way back up my chest. I grab her and get into a french kiss lock, flip her over and maybe I’ll eat the pussy for a little bit them I’ll take the head of my dick and move it around her clitoris. She loves when I do that. Sometimes she grabs my dick and start working it herself, and she’ll move it around until she comes or she’ll tell me to just fuck her. I love when she talks dirty to me and tells me to fuck her harder. She hasn’t said anything like that in a while. I can’t wait to get my dick in her soft little ass.

Sometimes I think that I should get me a little fuck bitch around here to fuck once or twice a week, but I just say knawl. I kind of like going home to Sausha with two weeks of come backed up in my dick because the pussy feels so good, and when I do come it feels unexplainable.

I kind of cheated this week though because I jacked off two nights in a row before I went to bed  Sun and Mon. You know I used to think that I couldn’t jack off. But one day I did it. I was over Rebecca’s house when she had the apartment in Youngstown, and she was at work. I popped in a porno movie called “Stick It In My Ass” and I went to town. I started thinking about all the freaky shit Rebecca and I used to do and the shit they were doing in the movie, and I started jacking off harder and faster. I could feel the come building up, and then I just came. Even though I had Rebecca, when she was gone I would pull out a movie and jack off. When I jack off to this day I can only think of Rebecca; how she used to always wear thongs; just around the house she’d be in t-shirt and a thong. I loved to see her big thick ass, and I would just crab the ass and fuck it anytime. Rebecca and I would always be on some sex shit. She would play with my dick at the movies, riding in the car; just sitting at home, she’d grab my dick and start sucking it.

I did everything with Rebecca. I just think of all the shit and her thick ass busting out of a thong and just bust a nut in my hand. I think I’ve mentioned before that Rebecca made me a freak. She’s the one who started me to eating pussy. After her, I needed to eat the pussy during foreplay to turn me on. Now, I’ve been with four girls since Rebecca, and with Lauren during being with Rebecca, so I haven’t ate that much pussy. I know Sausha is thankful. The way and as often as I eat her pussy is all due to Rebecca.

I think one of the reasons I sort of get so horny is because of this woman at work named Caroline. She is so fine to me, like everything I want my woman to be on the outside. She dresses tight everyday for work. She looks just tight; wears everything I love for a woman to wear: pants suits, skirt suits, hot pants, jeans (those fly little jean and boot outfits that I love with the nice fitting sweaters), dresses, shoes. I like everything she wears. And she has a tight little body also. Her ass is spread just wide enough. Her tidies are like Sausha’s, just big enough, I would love to make a fantasy night with her of going out talking, maybe dinner, a movie, and then home to have sex. It would be love to see her naked and to enjoy a sexual experience with her. Sometimes I look at her and just say to myself “I would love to just fuck her so nicely.” She is 30 with a 25 year old boyfriend whom she says is mature. I can believe that. I saw him at the company picnic and he looks thirty. When he shook my hand, he shook it all hard, which says to me that he is a little insecure about his man hood, trying to prove he’s strong. I know he tears Caroline’s ass out thoroughly.

Back to the firm hand shake business: I remember at Circle K when I was introduced to this lady at work. She was about late 30s early 40s, tall and kind of sexy for her age. She wore mid thigh mini skirts often and she had long legs. I would have loved to fuck her also. Anyway, when I met her she shook my hand all firmly, like snatched my arm up. She was telling me through her hand shake that our meeting was all business, no soft stuff, don’t think about it.

WHEN YOU’RE HORNY OR MASTERBATING, WHO OR WHAT PRESENT/PAST PERSON/SEXUAL INCIDENT(S)DO YOU THINK ABOUT?

One thought on “Jrnl Entry No.10.21.1999

  1. Caveat: I notice I use the word “Bitch” a lot. I liken it to a song by “The Geto Boys” called “Gansta of Love” (so misogynistic that it’s caricaturally funny.)

    Disclaimer: I do not call women bitches in life or treat them inferior in alpha male dominant low-self-esteem fashion.

    As these journals were personal (never to be read until my death or by close family only), I’d read them kin to Holden Caufield, past tense (20 years past) first person singular.

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